DAM MOODY

• This morning was very good, send my children to child care and then to work. All was going well, when my mum strike the thunder at me. She was complaining that I went to work too late, this is not the first time that I have explain to her, my wife need to prepare the children and that why we are late. I have told my wife about this but still the same, she say early liao. I was caught in the middle, sandwich. Later, I went for delivery and found myself stubbing into my past and not just past (bad memory), My mood just swing like that. I face turn black, like AIG owe me billions. Reached the office, did not talk to anyone, if not another 911.

• Thinking of going to the Marina to see sport cars, but become po car. my mum last minute wanted to go to Marin Parade to shop as she got a voucher from G2000. So all the plan gone again, because my wife wanted to go as her sister in law is working there. After we reach there, it was having a sale and I told my wife to see if there is a dress for her as I asked her to attend a wedding dinner with me. She then told me off my face, nothing to see. WAW then you tell where to bring her to buy clothes ????????????????????

• After coming home, I had my dinner and went to room and lock myself up and tell myself, what i have done or what this world have done to me. Like the old president, DON'T ASK WHAT THE COUNTRY CAN DO FOR YOU, ASK WHAT YOU CAN DO FOR THE COUNTRY.

• I have given all i have for this family, I have let down my pride and asked my supervisor that i will coming to work late as I need to send my children to school, YOU TELL WHICH JOB ALLOW YOU TO DO THAT - unless you are the boss la. When my father need to go out, I need to leave at 5.00 pm to fetch my children. I have to be stand by anytime for my family and what will happen to my job. That why I had resigned from my work and went to my father shop, why should I do this, I don't want to get sack, that why, I don't want to owe favour to others. Please help me to find a job hat pay you $2,400 a months work at 10.00 am and knock off at 6.00 pm sharp. I have change and kick the habit of going out at night and also cheonging, to spend time with my children and wife. But what do I get, I was left alone in the room, as no one is talking to me and they are doing their things. Not to get a chance to play with my children, not to love my wife. I was like in a world of myself when we are all in the same room. This have lead to my bad temper, having the idea to beat the children when they are naughty and does not listen to me. More to that, this have made me thinking of getting someone outside who will care for me, listen to me nag and know what I need and want.

• Thinking of all these, I was sad all these are bad for a family living. What I should do, should I just continue to carry on with this (dun tell me to talk to my wife as this have done for the past 2 years) or should I change my life style which will threaten my family living.

THAT IS THE QUESTION WHICH I ASK MYSELF WHEN I LOOK AT MYSELF IN THE MIRROR WHEN I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING.